The expectations and low self esteam, is what I have built up deep within me. Some people expect and most will demand, I now only do what I know that I can. Trying to please all people is no longer for me, I need to be the person I know I can be. Looking at the patterns that are in my family tree, I have come to finally realize that I was just what they wanted me to be. I will no longer be the person that others need to see, I will only be the person that is truly inside of me. There really isn't much in my family that I would want to follow, because in this family tree I feel lost, lonely and hollow. Family patterns and triangles are left to be seen, but all I ever wanted was to just be me. To spite all family problems and troubles that I can see, All I ever needed was God, hope and faith within me. So now that I know that along with my family tree, these were the tools that I needed to search inside of me.