I'm so hurt and fustrated deep down inside, I'm so tired of digging and searching to try and figure out why. There are just so many emotions that I just don't want to face, So many crazy emotions that I have to put in place. There is so much hurt and disappointment that is deep inside of me, so much anger and fustrations that I really don't want to see. Sooner or later I know I have to deal with this so that I can move on, so that I am able to teach these things to Joey, Knicky and Ron.