i wish it were all so simple
they never told you how hard it would be
to keep a family or two a float
with all that is drownding around you.
sometimes you just try to keep your fucking head above water
sometimes you wish you would just let yourself drowned with it
this is just the last straw in a dying friendship
the last straw that has been broken too many times already.
so please just let it fucking go you god damn coward.
if you had any man in you at all you would have stepped up,
stepped up and come to me as a friend not a wolf
a wolf in sheeps clothing.
in nearing a decade i put more faith in you than i did myself.
in nearing a decade i should have done the same for you.
yet i feared your judgement.
and that cost me more than can be shared here.
one day we may be able to make amends.
ond day this all may be clear.
yet i fear that day may be
may be too far off for us to remember.
yet there may come a day where i apologize
and that day may be the same that you apologize.
but whom amongst us knows this,
as i fear it is not me.