what happened to my spirit
what happened to my soul
i've drowned in a river of pain
strung out my feelings
a life i feign
a thunder of emotion, lightning strikes
in my soul, the gap in my chest
helps me know, helps me hate
the feelings i know best
a rumble in the sky, my feelings die
death of my heart, torn apart
howling winds and pouring rains
hold my soul down, deep in pain
death seem a welcome burden
to end it all, to fade to black
lose my life in the conquest
of my soul
i'm so tired of being weak, such a rage pent up inside
i'm so tired of being driven, torment until i die
death seems it could save me, beat back what rapes me
in my mind
death...to...my...mind
a flood of darkness drowns me
my aching heart pounds in my chest
the things you said weigh me down
pulling like shoes made of lead
you fucked me once and i forgave
fucked me twice and i thought you saved
fucked me again love i wont' lay down
any more, i can't live with you
lying to me, stabbing my back
here it is, now's the end
i won't take your bulllshit
again
i wear my blood on my sleeve
with my heart on my hands
no longer will love live
in this desolate land
(that was my soul)
i'm too tired and too tried to care for anyone
to care for someone else.
trust is supposed to be a bond
not my personal hell
you crushed my spirit and left a scar on my soul
this is what i get for letting you in
no matter, never again.... will i be stupid
and let someone in.