Dear No One IV: Closure?

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Dear No One,

You don't know how I feel anymore

You've lost that ability

To tell just what I'm thinking

At any given moment

I would've given you the world

Had I have had the chance to

But I guess somewhere out there

Someone decided I wasn't good enough

To have you.



Dear No One,

I don't know how I feel anymore

I'm all numb inside

From months and months of contemplation

Of a love life gone terribly wrong

When I went terribly wrong

Because that's all I ever am to you

Is wrong

Because I'll never really amount to anything

That's worth anything to you.



Dear No One,

I believed it when I said "I love you"

Those many months agi

But time has changed my view

To tell me that I'll always love you

Just not with that passion I had once felt

When my heart was melted together with yours

And I could not see the differences

Between your heart and mine

And love, and the pain I was going to feel.



Dear No One,

If I told you I love you again

Would you ever really listen to me?

I've contemplated many times

Reaching out my hands to you

In an attempt to right all the wrongs I have committed

Yet saying "I'm sorry"

Just seems to be too familiar of ground

For me to cover

Again and again and again.



Dear No One,

I believed you when You said "I love you"

With that sweet smile that melted my heart

I would've given up my whole life for you

If you had just asked me to

Instead of asking for someone better

I guess the world works in weird ways

Because you will soon be happy

Untortured by memories of a past

You have long forgotten.



Dear No One,

If there is ever a way to find closure

From a wound that has cut me so deep

That even the remedies all seem to hurt me more

Then let me not find it

Because somewhere deep inside of me

The pain needs to be more cherished

Than the release

Because at least now I can feel something

To let me know I'm still alive.



April 2, 2003

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