Dear No One,
You don't know how I feel anymore
You've lost that ability
To tell just what I'm thinking
At any given moment
I would've given you the world
Had I have had the chance to
But I guess somewhere out there
Someone decided I wasn't good enough
To have you.
Dear No One,
I don't know how I feel anymore
I'm all numb inside
From months and months of contemplation
Of a love life gone terribly wrong
When I went terribly wrong
Because that's all I ever am to you
Is wrong
Because I'll never really amount to anything
That's worth anything to you.
Dear No One,
I believed it when I said "I love you"
Those many months agi
But time has changed my view
To tell me that I'll always love you
Just not with that passion I had once felt
When my heart was melted together with yours
And I could not see the differences
Between your heart and mine
And love, and the pain I was going to feel.
Dear No One,
If I told you I love you again
Would you ever really listen to me?
I've contemplated many times
Reaching out my hands to you
In an attempt to right all the wrongs I have committed
Yet saying "I'm sorry"
Just seems to be too familiar of ground
For me to cover
Again and again and again.
Dear No One,
I believed you when You said "I love you"
With that sweet smile that melted my heart
I would've given up my whole life for you
If you had just asked me to
Instead of asking for someone better
I guess the world works in weird ways
Because you will soon be happy
Untortured by memories of a past
You have long forgotten.
Dear No One,
If there is ever a way to find closure
From a wound that has cut me so deep
That even the remedies all seem to hurt me more
Then let me not find it
Because somewhere deep inside of me
The pain needs to be more cherished
Than the release
Because at least now I can feel something
To let me know I'm still alive.
April 2, 2003