I've searched for the beauty you hold within
Somewhere in that little blue ball
You hid away in the deepest recesses of your soul
Only to come up empty handed
Because I never looked for you
Again
Because it hurt too much
To hear your voice
Caressing the chords of my heart
With all the warmth of a winter's fire
Next to your bed.
You never knew the endless journey I travelled
Searching for you or someone like you
Trying to find the warmth
Without the rejection that must come
Inevitably
For you could never love me
And you never will.
I've held you close
And I've held you as far from my weary soul
As I possibly could
Only to find
That your heart
Still feels the same.
January 1, 2003