I think I'm drunk on limitation
In a frenzy with the few and far in-between
For all I could've done in one week
Ten others could've cured what I had corrupted
I'm guessing how broad my options really are
And I'm staring sort of awkwardly straight ahead
There hasn't been a sign of trick or trance
Conclusions have all pointed to my head
I've journeyed in and out of those sliding doors
Greeted by the blue and ushered out in the end
By now, it's just another thing to give up on
I used to make an appearance once a week
Either to clear the air and to breath freely
Or to complicate what could've been so simple
It seems more appropriate to panic then it does to sleep
But a cat-nap sounds so much more appealing then a breakdown
I'm sturdy as I decline here
But I seem to sway as I make any progress
I wonder if I'd float, letting off all restraint
Being close was a plus to add to all the minus
But I guess everything's a sacrifice to the greater good
I guess what I'm trying to say is
I'm sorry for saying everything wrong and trying too hard
Or maybe not trying hard enough
I'm still as lost as I was when I loathed myself so much more