Maybe my youth is but a memory
And I must realize that I'm growing up
Because nothing seems promising anymore
And it's all part of adulthood
Unfortunate.
I don't enjoy feeling this way
And I never had wished to grow old
It makes me feel distant from the world
Like my soul is already ascending
And whether I'm a christian
An atheist or simply a pessimist
I'll end up in the same solitude
Saying goodbye to the past, piece by piece
And I'll see myself as a child
Crying out and reaching for the warmth
See myself from a far off place
Reaching for that poor little boy
And maybe he'll stop weeping.
Or maybe he'll stop his breath.
Those who can feel a presence
Can grasp the air with confidence
And those who feel a vast emptiness
Have a destiny as hollow as their hearts
And here I am
Truth be told
I feel so entirely lost
Relying on poision to keep me afloat
Along with the smoke of the trenches
The angry shouts of those who stand for love
The double standard that we humans create
And the contradiction that we live
There may or may not be
Something just for me
A chorus of angels
A morgue full of children
And maybe we're just soaking in each other's blood.