I’ve been hit by a bombshell.
When it happened, I felt my heart beign pulled down to my gut
And my insides blacken
With fear, astonishment, sickness.
What have I done? – my first reaction.
Returning from seven days’ absence
With a clear perspective on matters at hand,
Very optimistic and determined, I waited for a chance.
Then it happened, and things changed.
Brought to my attention – brutal honesty is ugly.
Could it be true?
Is that really how I am?
Could I treat a person with that much carelessness?
If what was said were true, eventually I would hurt a person greatly.
I know I don’t want to do that.
I’m pretty sure what was said is not the way I am.
They are not the reasons for what I’m doing,
Or for what happened to me – that’s a better way to put it.
Now I’m very unsure what to do.
At one time, I was prepared to handle the situation.
Now I’m afraid to make a move.
I feel like I should hold off.
I can do that,
But I think contact needs to be made.