I try so hard to remember why,
i let her leave and gave up without a try,
then she texts me and says the same,
i have no time for silly waiting games,
i tried so hard to drown my pain and fear,
but her smile yelled whenever i grabbed a beer,
i never wanted much, it's true,
which is why it's so hard to admit i want you,
"why did you just give up" she writes me,
if only she knew how much it's just not like me,
if only she knew since Stacey i never trusted,
then right when i did i was busted,
everything i finally admitted and got off my chest,
is supposed to make me happy like the rest,
it only increases memories and desire,
which then increases my regret that i retired.