I want to smile,
but it always makes me sad.
Am I in denial,
or craving something I once had.
I want,
then i don't care.
I lose,
out the window I stare.
Saying goodbye is so hard,
and it hurts so bad.
Leaves my insides charred,
like a pissed off dad.
Looking for center,
I stray right.
I'm about to enter,
exploding dynamite.
*S*