strange sensations
but all seem so dead
thoughts of confusions
thoughts that I dread
lonely days
lonelier nights
turning on my lamp
blinded by the lights
reading my poems
reading her notes
wondering what she was feeling
when she thought what she wrote
clock says 5:40
another night with no sleep
but I still drift off
in darkness so deep
dreams come and go
but this one returns
that night was so beautiful
though the regrets still burn
thoughts of regret
then regretting those thoughts
fighting back the tears
which I already fought
clock says 7:20
an hour of rest
look in the mirror
not looking my best
put on some clothes
and go for a jog
eyes start to water
thoughts start to fog
fall to my knees
more tears in my eyes
wonder if they'll
ever have the chance to dry
get back on my feat
legs to weak to even move
but I still keep on
wondering what I’m trying to prove
end up back home
where no one can here me scream
where I lay awake during the night
where I lost my privilege to dream