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why am i sending away all the good guys? that is my newest thought



i figure it out after i send them away



one thought could be that i do not think i deserve a good guy in my life possibly, but i know i am worthy  so it makes zero sense



oh wait i know i just remembered why:



I am ready, but still married...



and i wonder if they all seek my body because of this



one told me he was God sent and i think i know everything ...



i know nothing and i operate from that lol



sometimes it's deeper than one might think, i wish the god sends would just see it



it is always deeper, but most people just see what they want to see putting people into a box that no one, them included, can fit into



we all do it too, but i try not to... i cannot believe that i do it still



I am taking steps to be clear and free, I have issues that i must address and feel like no one should have to deal with my mess



eagerness is a constant and feeling like i am at the brink of a new existence fills me it's overwhelming yet i seek to enjoy my space, my freedom and live....



i was once told by many on separate occasions that i had been created to start their new nations,



they coupled me off and set me to the side



until i was ripe and and could stand the ride



life is a sea of changing tide



and i decided i could no longer hide



i have been well groomed in the ways of all actions



and don't want to be doomed seeking satisfaction



i seek to be sought and i seek to be found



but i seek to be worthy of higher ground



what woman is worthy of a man who doesn't seek to understand his plan



what man is worthy of a woman who doesn't see her truly within



unraveled in thoughts and wrapped up in love



but i am alone since i am undiscovered



and surrounded by options of attaining a lover



when what i need is the ONE who will not go away



who'll hold me if i say i am not okay



who'll hold my soft heart and appreciate my art



who can accept the return and know that's he's earned



me



I am alone because he's so raveled up



in seeking to fill his cup



that's running over with love that's bottled up



with pressure that is meant for only me to feel



I am alone because i seek the REAL