As I try to shake off these whorish ways
That suppressed my blessings in so many ways
I fall short of the glory that is meant for me
Doing these things that no one sees
I pray for help in controlling myself
Since I can place the blame on no one else
That someday soon I can reject the urge
To indulge adultery and never purge
But to confess is to punish myself
While putting my needs up on a shelf
So I seep out knowledge of these escapades
In ways that would never escalate
The anger that would be directed at me
Thinking I gave up his punany
Keep it disguised, I sit on that prize
I don’t even let them beat it up with their eyes
But I like to see new ones, that’s my issue
Is it gonna spit now, do you need a tissue?
I am doing it again somebody lend me your willpower
So that hour after hour this wallflower can have staying power
So I can call me resistant, resilient and truly strong
Cuz I stopped indulging what looks so right and is so wrong