feels like i messed up
continuing to give it up
to the enemy who loves me
and showed through infidelity
that only he is allowed to be
emotional, sexual, ignorant and dumb
the sting from it still has me numb
blurry vision and jarred memories
are the only way that i can see
us staying we
but unfortunately I am able to see
so whatever becomes of we will be
the product of all this pondering