At first I couldn't see
The rust and tarnish that clings
To your brilliant shiny surface.
My eyes were closed, I fear,
To any imperfection in your manner.
there was no blemish to perfection,
Not a fleck of ruin to your visage.
He was courtly and beautiful
Atop a stately horse
whose iron shod hooves
Rent the air.
He carried his sword,
Like a martyr his cross:
Gallant, remorseful,
The tool of war and tradition,
Reaping the benefit of dissension,
Cunning enough to show shame
For actions easily claimed to be out of his hands.
And then I learned of the zeal
In which my paramour slayed.
First to pillage, first to rend.
He led the sacking's way.
Towns alight with his ravager's fire,
As he left a plume of dust,
Carrying away a trophy girl,
To celebrate the night's festivities.
His horse a red eyed steed,
Reveling in their victims blood,
Fetlocks perpetually stained,
A vicious crimson.
At first I couldn't see
The black eating away at
Your brilliantly shining surface.
My mind sweetly blocked out
Any mar to the perfection
In which I entrusted you.
But minds are easily stained
When confronted with ugly truths.
I couldn't see,
that there was darkness to your every move.
And in my innocence, i found beauty
In that darkness.
Now I fear, I'm in too deep,
To allow myself to be dissuaded,
From the illusion that my heart has created
Beautiful charming knight
Atop a war-sound steed.
And so, I will live in darkness,
that I've grown acustom.
As disease slowly wilts it away