Letting go of you was on of the hardest things I ever did
I loved you very much at one point
But we could never work together
I knew that deep down but I tried to force our pieces together
I was always so afraid of losing you
Even though when we were together it was always just fights
Yelling and screaming at each other for stupid shit
We couldn’t ever love each other right
When it was good it was intoxicating and I lost myself in you
When it was bad it destroyed me pushed me to the brink of insanity
We were a toxic kind of love
Impossible to ever keep together for long periods of time
But as crazy as it is I loved you in some fucked up way
Throwing dishes at you screaming about the girl you had in my bed
Nothing was ever right for long
I let my life wrap around you for so long
After we parted ways my life felt empty
Dating was a disaster after
It had been so long I was so awkward and unaccustomed to the dating scene
Coping with the emptiness in my heart I turned to things I’d never considered before
Getting high was the only way I could get your ghost to stop haunting my dreams
I was seeing you everywhere
Falling out of love leaves one person so broken they can hardly breathe
Turning to anything that will give me a break for just a few hours
I need to get over you
Writing this is my last goodbye my lover.
~Persephone