I remember the butterflies that filled my tummy the first time you called.
My day and night were small conversations with the boy I just met.
I never thought that silly boy would ride this rollercoaster with me for half my life.
Seems like we blinked and jumped into a different time.
So much happened in a few months, so much hurt and so much pain.
You think I planned this dilemma, and that I'm not hurting, too.
Our hearts are broken, mine in two.
Understanding me is hard. And I can't blame you.
My problem is talking, it's so hard to do. I leave so much unsaid.
You are truly the strongest person I know.
For loving me in every painful way that you do.
Out of control is what I describe this feeling.
Over a puzzle that I try to put together and just doesn't fit right.
The pieces that I have been looking for and wanting are all there.
Fighting and I'm fighting, for y'all it's unfair.
All this frustration, I'm feeling numb.
Confusion by the illusions when I try to forget the past with the new,
but the new is not comfort and that confuses me more. I refuse to admit it, but...
Each and every time, my missing puzzle piece will ALWAYS be you.