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They say to write what you feel. This is what I feel. This is how I feel. This isn't another poem but a note to express myself. I'm depressed. I've lost everything that ever meant anything to me... My wife, my kids... The feeling of not being wanted has my mind spinning. For the last 2 days I've been in a really dark place... I want to kill myself. Yes, suicide. The very topic I've been writing about for years. Why does this time feel more real? Why does it matter? Nobody is ever listening. It's like I'm all alone with these damn thoughts. Anyone there to save me? Of course not. My wife doesn't understand... My friends don't either. I feel like I'm completely on my own. My mind's fucked up. I can't think straight. I'm hungry but don't feel like eating... My sleep is broken. I feel like I'm just bothering everybody I talk to. Am I crazy? I'm losing my mind, surely. When does it end? Can I control it? I'm exhausted. I'm tired of fighting it. I just want to close my eyes and stay in the peaceful nothingness of slumber. I don't want to dream. I don't want to wake up. I just want peace within myself. I ruin everything that I put my hands on. I love you, Jellybean. I hope that I can climb out of this hole and become better. You've been in my life for 17 years... It can't end this way, can it?