unexpected
unplanned
i wasn't ready for this
my mistake
just as much
as it was his
but here i am
expected to grow up
and become a mother
to this little person
growing inside of me
suddenly responsible for another
so i don't drink
and i don't smoke
and i obsess over taking my prenatal vitamin
and he's probably out
having a good time
with some other girl on top of him
feeling good about abandoning me
abandoning her
and forgetting about the both of us
but i figure no father
is better than a bad father
so i'll save her a lot of the fuss
my dad did me no good
when he was around
and look at me
ok, so not such great results
but i'm cleaning up
for my baby