Cutting

Why is it so hard to stay alive?

Why does it feel like I am fighting for my life?

I constantly think of ways to injure myself,

My best friend is an X-acto knife.



I honestly don’t want to die,

It is definitely not my goal.

It would be a whole lot better,

If everyone would leave me alone in my hole.



I am afraid of this addiction,

I hate how I live with this sin.

But as the pain and anger get worse,

Instead of screaming and yelling, I cut again.



But God must have a purpose,

I just hope mine is not to die.

I just see when I am cutting,

The blood gives me an emotional high.



Please don’t take away my friend,

My love of cutting is how I get by.

I promise if you will just back off,

I will make sure I don’t die.

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