I stand before the looking glass
My eyes averted, I summon my farce
I raise my own gaze to assess my reflection, I smile
I smile to see if it looks good
The image is false to me
Who is it that I see?
I look into the reflected eyes
The contrast, the lies, the confusion
Blue? Green? Grey? Gold? Shade upon shade
Over the years I have watched the colors fade
The clarity of youth gone
Who is it that I see?
I draw in a breath and search deeper
What is it that I see?
I see contradiction
I see confusion
I see pain
My tainted soul lies broken
Yearning to be free- desire unspoken
This is what I see
I loathe this, this is me