I said that I was sorry
For the mistakes I've made
I said I'd never go back
To my old sinful ways
I said that I would serve You
With all that I am
Yet time after time I failed
Allowing the sin You once erased
To take over my life again.
My inability to keep these promises
Is tearing me apart inside-
All I wanted to do
Was to show You how much I love You
How much I want to feel Your presence fill my life
But my humanity got in the way
Blocking my view of Your glory and love
And every promise I made
Every prayer and vow
Turned to ash in my mouth.
I kneel before You, my King
My heart is broken
My soul is weary-
I no longer want control of my life-
I want to give it over to You
I want You to have every part of me.
I'm desperate, Lord
I need You now, more than ever before-
I want to feel Your love wash over me
Cleansing my heart, my soul
Of this sin, this guilt, these regrets.
I need to know, Lord Jesus
Have I left it too long-
Is it too late for me
To return, to turn my life around?
Please, don't give up on me
Please don't turn Your back on me
I want to come home, Lord
To leave behind the remnants of this broken life
I want to give my everything to You
And follow You for the rest of my days.
This is so beautiful, I love this poem and I can really relate. This is definitely one of my favorites.