Romanticized
I dream of suicide
with black roses and angels that cry
with perfect shadows
to lie in and whisper ever so
softly, tragically
Death’s poetry
reciting those words
with paradise in sight
How it hurts in heaven
Bewitching
Beguiling red poetry down my arms
down the drain
Irresistible-
Drain me of blood
You know I didn’t mean it
just wanted to be beautiful
You know I’m not serious-
that’s not my hand
that’s not my knife
that’s not my wrist
That’s not me-
an addict a slave
Drain me of blood
Regret-
and now I’m on my knees
begging Death for mercy
but somehow I knew
I always knew
This ends in tragedy
I’m not going to make it,
Am I?