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Letter to you
Do you ever feel that every decision you make is the wrong one? That nothing that you do is ever right and no matter what choice you make, it wasn't the right thing. If you go left, the path is flooded by feet of rushing water. If you went right, there would be nothing by scorched earth and smoldering cinders. It's like, you can't win for trying. No choice ever made is the right one. And because of it, all you do is hurt those you care about most. You can see the pain in their faces, feel the dissapointment in their eyes. It weighs on you like a heavy weight, crushing you beneath it. Nothing that you can do can seem to help, no act makes any difference. All that is done is that more is added to the load that is now on your shoulder. In the end you are left slowly sinking in quick sand, the more you struggle the worse it gets. It feels like I'm slowly sinking in, scared not to do anything, scared that anything I do will once again make things worse. And so I sink. So I slowly let the sand take me until I am gasping for breath, trying to find a sense of normalcy within myself, within the world that surrounds me. My heart hurts, not only for those things I cannot change within myself, but because there is nothing I can do to help you who I love most. All I can do is say I'm sorry and hope that one day, one day the light will shine in your eyes as it once did. And I love you. Always.
