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Not anymore
I feel restricted, confined
I need a fag and to get outside
To breathe the air to be inspired
To light inside me a tingling fire
To warm the cold and fill the space
That has become my chest
To ease the aching weight that sits
Like a stone upon my breast
The hollow calls for the brightest spark
Energy to light the darkest dark
And to fulfil the emptiness that soaks my heart
That weighs it down, a heavy strain
I need some light to burn the pain
To seal the wound that the world has made
To make the hollow ebb away
Something fantastic, fiery and new
And excitement that makes the world stand askew
Something fresh to open my eyes to
Just give me a sign of where to find you
Because that woman was right when she said what she said
How can you climb out of the dark in your head
When the world and its torment forces you to crawl
Into the hollow into the drawer
To where you recluse from the dim light outside
From the knocks and the bashing it’s now where you hide
And you wait for something to change you inside
To the make the world have some brighter light
And you thought it was natural to start screaming at night
Taking some pills so you can sleep, it’s not right
And yet the tears have not ended they rain ever still
And there is no escape from this feeling until
The clouds have all passed and rest for a while
You can go on not thinking of the rawness they bring
You can forget for a moment the hurt and the sting
Of every new knock the world fucking brings
And wait for the moment for the sun to rise
When the hollow is filled you can open you eyes
And not hide away or sit way inside
But come out from the attic and into the sky
In which you will find a light
A star that is born in the depths of the night
And with it brings the fire you needed so long
All you’ve needed to just carry on
Something so simple a small snatch of light
Something to fill the dark in the night
Something to ease the weight in your chest
To help you in all of your pain and distress
Something to make things worth just living for
Because I don’t want to be in the hollow
Not anymore.
