I cannot live with what I have done to you
Even now, you are water while I roast and burn!
While asleep, even my dreams are not of you!
Her lips are crimson, her skin fair and smooth, her voice melodious and tempting
The Siren who visits me when I'm in the realm of Somnus
I pour all my tenderness into each kiss and touch, and though I kiss you longer and hold you tighter, it's an alien feeling
As if I am a ghost
It is her I see everywhere I go
It is her I only think about
It is her I only feel to love
However, she has long since passed this Earthly realm and though I'm committed to you and our children, she always haunts my heart
In my mind's eye, she is still here with me - alive
We have a life together - a family
Our children are happy and healthy
You found me at my lowest
At a time when I thought that I could never enjoy happiness - or life - ever again
And though we share a life together - a family complete with children
I will always be stuck in the past; it is where my heart truly lies and where my good memories are stored
If this is hell, I don't want to know what heaven is!
La mia penitenza deve essere per sempre amarti!