The light fades
with only despair to be felt.
Grilled by council of judges.
More pain and agony at home with stubborn stupidity
after years of tolerated emotional torture.
I wanted to puke
blood that is.
Then the ultimate confirmation on the bus this morning
that I was made by God to be a loner.
This is by far the hardest part to accept
but I have no choice other than eternal return to God by death.