should i just
drip?
it seems like
a
reasonable decision
at the
moment
definitely a
judicious choice
there's little
in me,
the syringe,
but i'm still intravenously
applicable
if i'm losing my mind
i'm blind to it
and have begun seeing it
as an almost
artistic development
but the realisity
of the situation
may be vehemently
opposite
contrast
compare
what?
which things?
what corresponds with what?
can you explain it to me, sir?
sir, i've got to make the union
lost from one dot to the next
these dots aren't numbered
and form no silhouette sort picture
either
don't you remember you told me you loved me, baby?
this piece
associates
with a void
nothing
connects
with
nothing
have you recognized that already?
surely...
i'm not connected to you
i never understand what you say
but unconsciously
i am able to keep up
with the pace of conversation
i acknowledge it's development
how one thing progresses to another
i am able to reference back to
previous statements
i am able to point out irony
and create relevant hypothetical situations
and i am able to entertain
you
the less aware i am of myself
the more aware i am of you
please, never be diffident around me
for i know you're not hearing me
only yourself and your doubt and lack
of conversational confidence
anything you contribute is fine
that goes out to you
to me
to all
i can feel the violent fluctuations of the collective mood of mankind
please, i'm alright with you
just be sincere
and everything will be fine
sincerity, worrilessness
....
i've lost my ability to write but have gained so much compassion
you can tell me anything
other's experiences is all i have
my life is uninteresting
because i keep it that way for personal reasons
i blame boredom on other's sometime
but it's my own lack of creativity and innovation
i have you
and your stories
and i add them to my banks of memory
i have some divisions of my own personal memories
(details, nothing schematically whole)
and most of them, i promise
make me smile
sounds, sights, smells
tactile sensations
i wish i could hear the thoughts of uncivilized animals
meat isn't murder, it's just recycling
everything
can be
recycled
emotion energy is recyclable
i feel quite satisfied
yet there's a small notion
i'm being nonsensical
but that feeling dissipates
postal script:
yesterday,
a cashier at the southern family market
purchased for me
an arizona green tea
for i was parched
and quite grateful in the aftermath
you do not need reasons be kind