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Dear God
Dear God.
I am writing this letter to you
In hopes that you will listen
I've given up hope in you
I've given up hope in me
How can these things
that you have brought into my life
devastate me in such a way
that I can't remember how to breath?
I've walked in the shoes of a 50 year old woman
at the age of 22.
I'm falling apart,
Where are my second set of footsteps
when I'm to broken to walk?
You've blessed so many
But I feel I have been the black sheep
of your flock
Most covered in diamonds
while I was covered in shells..
at one point in my life
I felt I had it all
But...
Now
I'm here alone once again
With nothing to show for the past I had
I've tasted all the joys that life can bring
But I feel even then
It was to much for this one shallow girl
i just want
5 more minutes of peace
I've always wanted to die
but you have kept me here still alive...
So tell me why?
A cruel emotional joke
to everyone I know.
I can't figure this out
why I can't quit asking the same question
why I still have no answers.
I never wanted to be this girl you see
Or the girl that they know
The outcast of this town
But for all this pain and all this torment
I've had one blessing from you
My little girl
She's the only beautiful thing I can see
The only one i want to know
She is my whole world,
an my heart.
I think I know now that you gave her to me
to remind me of the good in this world
She is my strength when i fall
she is who holds my hand when I am weak
She is my hope made flesh
So please god
hear my prayer
Give her a good life
Like one I've never known
Give her love an warmth
and give her the strength to walk
through this world.
And that will be the only prayer
I will ever pray to be answered
