The desires of my heart
conflict with the rationality of my brain.
I struggle each day with both
even when they say similar things.
Like a cloud soaring in the open sky
with no real purpose for its course
I feel like I'm soaring with no place to go.
Some may say the cloud has a purpose
It goes a certain way because of the
jetstream or gravity
And maybe I'm soaring to
a specific location within myself.
To be independent,
with no one needed to fill me with joy.
I don't know if I am cut out
for independence
Maybe God is showing me
I don't need anyone else to love me
All I need is myself
my beauty in my heart
my strength
my own intelligence.
Maybe He is right.
Perhaps my lesson
is becoming clearer
And taking me out of my deep sadness
that weighs about my heart so heavily.
sbriere
Nov. 26/10