Through all the long winter, bitter and cold
in the darkness of the snow, I wept.
Tears of cold ice falling and stalling
the inevitable conclusion. A whisper
insists upon an answer but I have
none to give. A voice demands an opinion
but my opinion is that I am empty. Through
all the long winter, bitter and cold I
watched you depart from me. I am aware
of the patterns of your thoughts and so
I read a book and pretended you were
not in the room. The children played
unaware that their parents were fallen
shapes of despair. The dog ran in a
circle and we watched, unwire that the
circle was the pattern of our life. I don’t
want to hear your words and yet I have
heard them in my heart. Going out
every night is your manner of stressing
the state of our telephone messages. The
phone rings and in answering I have
developed a phobia for the sound of
bells and conclusions. I open again
the book of certainty and pretend
that the colour of life is yellow even
when the walls get painted black all
around my suffering soul. Someone
is knocking on the door and I suspect it
is the police coming to arrest our
emotions. In jail we can circle our
freedom. In prison we can lock
our door and open it no more.