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Forgiving The mother of 3 did not care about his sexual preference. Whether he
was heterosexual or gay he had not in 15 years told her the truth and by his
affairs had exposed her and her children to disease and heartbreak.
He had been a cat waiting by a catbox.. ready to pounce
on the young. Unfaithful in bathhouses, lying in theatres,
misogynist and form conscious, he had caused her to
doubt herself. She had unconsciously become more mannish
to try to attact him.
But in the eye of the beholder is the evil.
Only bug haters resent the cotton's bo weevil.
As she slowly forgave she realized
her unforgiveness had been a greater wrong.
She was the one guilty of continuous mental postmortems..
she Lot's wife had become a pillar of salt
from remembering the heart's assaults
Years later she met another gay man.
He was not of the bathhouse liars.. with their disease spreading polypartners
..nor was he a misogynist.. nor a worshipper of youth and
exterior form.
He was a truthteller, faithful to one. He did not love fighting
and was not magnetized to the military.. nor to violent
sports. His sense of rights was balanced by his sense
of responsibility. He helped her to forgive.
...........
Gay men sometimes have had an immediate past life as a woman. Some are
animal lovers who run from the violence with which a male world programs
them, whether by an abusive father or a hunting community or a dominant
coach. .. sometimes there is a venus uranus, sun uranus, sun venus, or mars
venus aspect which indicates karma with certain tests. Gay women sometimes
have moon neptune aspects. The deliberate inculcation of AIDS into the gay
community, say some, began with the recruiting through a newspaper ad of gay
men for a 'hepatitis C' study, as in Africa it was transmitted through smallpox
vaccine distributed by the WHO.
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to JH, HB, and Mrs M
