I'm up, I'm down
even when im up, im still negative
everything to look forward to,
I don't see that.
im fighting a battle, I can barely win,
there you are in my thoughts,
I say don't do that but thought goes away for a while,
thought returns and I give in,
sitting in bathroom I pull sleeves up,
remove my knife and start cutting.
the cuts are pointles,
i feel relieve,
seeing the blood makes me stop.
Next week, same time?