This knife in my heart still hurts,
I feel its sharpness like tears swelling up in my eyes,
It’s a feeling of eternity that keeps me up at night
Our past will forever stay in my present
I hate how much I love you
When darkness turns into light
My pain stays the same,
Although the seasons have changed
My pain stays the same.
I’m sick of your smile and how absent it is
I miss your voice and but hate how silent it sounds
I need your love however small it may be
And thinking of the touch of your skin
Won’t amount to anything
Thinking of the times we stared into each other’s eyes
Won’t bring you back in my arms
Tonight I’ll wrap you around me like a non-existent blanket
And pray that our past will keep me warm in this freezing weather