Every time we chill
I know that I do not want you
Or even really like you
I know I just want to be wanted
In case he decides to not want me
I know all the reasons why this flutter of nerves in my belly isn’t real at all
I know
I get it
And I am completely aware that it is unfair to you
But still I cannot help but wonder
What if it has nothing to do with him at all?