it was that moment when you know
just intuitively know...
in the pits of your body
or heart
or soul
just somewhere
in the being you’ve become
in the world without warning…
somewhere you just know…
that you won’t work…
it was that sorrowful second when
it’s over eventually
someday…
one day
eventually…
it was that moment when you know
intuitively
that you won’t work
juxtaposed
by the way he just made you laugh
right here
right now
.
Author's Notes/Comments:
I was out for dinner with my former partner, we had had a bad fight and I had decided to try and see if we could make it work, and he said something, and for a second I felt contempt for him for it and in that second it hit me that we wouldn't work and couln't work if I had contempt for him, really truly had contempt, and then he said something else and we laughed and the feeling lifted and I realised it wasn't contempt...it was just me being a bit hurt still and deffensive..and we did work, were working, and could always work... anyhows I grabbed my phone and texted myself the poem...hope that it captured the feeling...