Whether it came before me or after
Hardly makes a difference, hardly matters
Against the twisted thoughts, the chilling laughter
That damage our love, leave it in tatters.
I can't speak one word you can't misconstrue.
All my kindnesses become forsaken.
You said "I'll be there, I'll always be true,"
Then suddenly your presence was taken.
We planned evenings. Then I looked in your eyes
And saw I had need for new arrangements.
Your words...stunningly cruel. I now realize
Ours is the stuff of prolonged estrangements.
I excuse myself, I see quite clearly -
There's alcohol, there's me. It won't be me.