I've tired of waking in this bed alone,
But I'm afraid of change, and that's all I've known.
I stare longingly at couples hand-in-hand
Who air out their love for all to see.
Their choosing always to grandstand
Has far too great an effect on me.
I pass them by walking home on my own
Wond'ring why I've no love of my own.
Then I stop on the corner and think for a minute;
This walk-don't-walk is always delayed.
Why long for relationship if my heart's not in it?
Why must I feel a sense of dismay?
Perhaps years behind me have passed through the sieve,
But looking ahead I have my whole life to live.
What may be right for them may not be for me
And I've plenty of time until I can see
What direction I'd best head in,
The one who I should let in.
Today I'll relax, breathe deep,
Treat life like it's all-you-can-eat
Since here I am in the driver's seat.
One day I'll look back and call it a phase
Reflecting fondly on my younger days,
Till then pointedly, perpetually, professionally single.