I've spent so long in this hollowed-out shell
That it's come to be synonymous with all I am.
It's caused some to think they know me well.
Honesty or not I feel like a sham,
For everyday society compartmentalizes
Each piece of me into qualifications.
I long for the day when it realizes
There are so many more considerations
To be made in the scope of a man,
Even if they complicate the plan.
And my plan? It's seen more turns and twists
Than a cobra or a boxer's fists.
I long for crisp knowledge of who I am
That falls in the lap of the average man -
Until I find it I'll reel myself in,
Just wipe the slate clean and treat it as sin
To know where one part ends and one begins,
Not because culture says I must kowtow,
Declaring who I am right here and now -
To such precedents I will never bow -
I'm just doing it for learning's sake
To figure out what it will take
To find myself love in this life.