You don't realize
How much your words
And actions
Truly hurt
Me
You could care less
If I died tomorrow
All I have ever done
Was love you deeply
Yes I know I made up
That story because
I thought I was losing you
To someone else
Yet you believed it to be real
And I have tried everything
In my power to make it up to you
But now I realize you never could forgive me
Instead you run away with another
Have sex with her
And make a child
Even if the child didn't make it
You still love her and that child
I don't care about you having another baby
What really hurts
Is that you lied to me
And said you loved me
Yet soon as you hear the baby
Has been called home with God
You left me
And our children
For her and your unborn son
Like I said I'm not angry or mad
I would still have excepted the child
As if he was my own
Yet you yell,
You curse me out,
And accuse me of causing the childs death
When I found out you left
I cried and felt a sharp
Pain go through my heart
Because that's
How much it hurt and
Made me angry becasue
It just proved to me
Everything you said was
Only said so I would give you
What you wanted
Sex
Nothing more
I mean nothing to you
Since you met her
You ignore me
And lie to me
You want to know about our sons
Only when you want too
That isn't a parent
That's a sperm doner
You say your a great father
But in truth everyone
Who sees you for the truth
Knows that to be false
You make me look like
I'm the evil girl friend
Who lied and cheated
When in fact it was you
I have shed so many tears
For you
Now if I cry it
Is only
Anger and
Disappointment
Eight years
We were together
And the whole time it was all
Lies
I should have listened to my family
Yet
I was so head over heels in love
Or what I thought to be love
That I didn't see who you really
Are
You wanted to hurt me so
Bad
You have
You suceeded
I'm hurt
But I will not let you
Break me
Instead I want to thank
You
Because now I'm free
Free of the drama
Free of the lies
I'm free to be
Me