I'm in shambles
My poems are just nonsensical rambles
Too ashamed to ask for a helping hand
Why am I so compelled to fulfill everyone's demands?
When did it not become okay for passions to change?
Everyone always teases about the lives they would exchange.
Feeling sick to my stomach, the Zoloft doesn't help
Rewire my brain to be happy, but just end up killing myself...
Reflect on past photos to improve the mood
But only brooded over the past and garnered an attitude
Used the drugs to escape this mundane world
But in reality, abused the drugs to points where I couldn't speak a word.
Life tasks and consistency become irritating to complete
Over and over, doing the same everyday on repeat
I find comfort in branching out elsewhere
These past passions I thought I had, now don't give a care.
Life is full of so much choice, if life was like that book, The Giver, then I'd know my purpose
But I guess that's all part of life, have to find out what makes it worth it.