My nerves were stressed and shot.
My muscles and heart tense and hard.
I turned on myself,
on my body.
I thought that this was wrong.
That is was not right.
I know that my response was incorrect.
That I took these reactions personally,
And I left presence.
Running away from what I thought was wrong and bad.
This is not a message of anger or disgust at my actions.
It is the opposite.
A sense of calm about it has fallen over me.
Yes it's still there.
But I know what to do to live with it.
I will sit with it and hold it with
compassion for as long as needed.