"Lost Faith" (from a baptist)
What i belive is no just a memory
another section of my life forgotten
"Lost Faith" that's now not apart of me
tainted truths by fiction turned rotten
"Lost Faith" in prayer
spoken words, spoken pleas
god's made me into a reason slayer
broken heart, broken dreams
how can my word reach the almighty
if he's now "Lost Faith" in me
jesus dies on the cross for my sin's
but i never ask him to die for me
Brought up in a baptist home my entire life
fed what to think, led how to feel
my religion based on so called "faith"
that could or could not be real
paster preached honor thy lord
and love thy savior
i've honored to long
now all i have is "Lost" behavior
used be a follower
but bred a leader
if god wanted to save our souls
then why was jesus a bleeder
hung upon that wooden cross
did he not say "what have i done"
he could protect every one else
but could not save himself
gods ultimate sacrifice
was suppose to be my forgiver
but now i'm "Lost"
down a clouded "Faith" river
Out of sight out of mind
i see no god
just my "Lost" reflection
among the collection plates
of my "Faith's" rejection
So what the Church holds to be true
is mandated in heaven
what about the perverted priest
What about those boys who's "faith"
was "Lost" to molestation
I was told to fear my "faith"
to hate the devil
but if were wrong
and god's on Satan's level
Was a hardcore christian
but i have "Lost" my good book
Its buried among the fiction novels
that never get a second look
God gave his only begotten son
so we could walk through those golden gates
were suppose to just know this
so if we guess right he cleans are slates
to me that's now bull shit
i'm tired of crying on silent ears
i'm tired of having just "faith"
i'm tired of being "Lost" in a bottle
to Quiet my true fears
with so many religions
who am i to say whats right
its now spiritual oppression
racism turned to godism
1000's of years of "Faith's" succession
"Lost" mental discretion
no longer a god given blessin
Jesus is white, Jesus is black
what if he's not real
just a character made up
to comfort you
an actual person who thought he was god
so he wrote a book
he might just be a common crook
I trust almost no one
yet i'm suppose to have "Faith"
in a man who could be no one
Silenced by how i grieve
the bible was written by men
with all there corruption and inconsistency
then couldn't the book be riddled with sin
god has so much power
then why doesn't he stop my rants
my repetitive poem
god has so much power
then what does little old me have to show him
have to owe him
or even know him
Why do people die then
why do people kill
why do people lose "Faith"
what am i just amusement
god's big thrill
I've "lost my faith
and thats simply put
but if a simple explanation
is just simple words
the why is "Lost Faith"
so hard to be heard
wishful thinking
thats only that
a dream for something more
not just in a coffin on my back
its mind, body and soul
divine fixation
maybe i'm just mind and body
minus the soul, and "Lost as a whole
were givin brains to think
but not allowed to use them
I'm tired of being a lamb
i'm tired of losing trust
I guess if i'm going to hell
i'm driving the bus