Forever to be held in these binding chains of his wrath,
To escape would be self-salvation yet depravation to my kin.
Alone these lonely paths I ride,
An eternity of listlessness before me.
Oh how I crave to slip away into the eye of another,
Absorb my being in each fleck of color, charmed by each flaw.
Safe warm arms of another,
My protector battling the demons in the night.
Comfort, taken for granted by many,
Oh this treasure I wish I held so dear.
I dream now but reality is always there.
Each day the void grows larger, consuming me.
Only I would succeed when at last I am the shell of a woman.
This twitch that holds me back, why do I hide?
No one will find me.
A cynical cycle of self-devastation echoing through time
"To look up hurts my eyes, will I ever see again?"
Maybe I'll just float away, wipe the dry tears from my face.
Make another joke, laugh and watch my spirit slowly fade.