I give you my heart and my soul
I give you my body and my name
Its yours to do with as you please
may you or may you not swallow them whole.
I give you everything, do you do the same?
With every kiss from your lips you put me at ease,
but jealousy rots and I worry
that i am not your all.
The cold rage turning into burning fury
and for a moment, I reach for the phone to call
and then the fury halts---
I feel foolish, so very dumb
as I stare back onto my jealous faults,
feeling dull, feeling numb.
Would you hurt me? Would you shatter me?
Would you use me for a play toy?
Would you think that I would see
another fucking idiot-boy?
I know that you said you wouldn't wait
I know that I will for two years
to find out if our love formed by fate
but right now loneliness sears
threatening to swallow me
it laughs as it wickedly grins
turning into a fog that I can't see
through, accusing me of falsified sins...
My fear, turning around, twisting out my heart
driving me insane, tearing me apart.