There is no sun
In this day.
Maybe it’s just too early.
We went our own separate ways.
Maybe you’ll surprise me.
I thought the gulf that divides
Was the ocean we’d swim in.
I thought it was the water
Which would bathe us.
Now I’m on the shore
Feeling drenched.
Staring out over the distance
Which used to be mine.
I’m not saying I owned you,
But you used to be mine?
I used those words
Because I wanted you to respond;
Because I had to respond.
I remembered the intimacy
The soft sleepless kicks
Which never should have
Led to this.
We shared our fears
Now I feel betrayed
And you’re just tired.
Now I can dream
The dreams that were ours.
But it makes me fear being awake.
I could feel the warmth
But it just teases.
These dancing flames
Which illuminate something
And burn.
Which makes the water vapor
And gives me
This land to stand on.
This fire
Ready to kill me
Because I need it badly enough.
And then maybe
You’ll surprise me.