But Those Were The Years

I could have seen them

If they didn't wear their tanktops.

They could have seen me

If I wasn't so closed.

But those were the years.

I could have laughed at a joke

If their laughter didn't take from my dignity.

I could have saved the bully

If only suicide didn't insist on a lifetime of its own.

But those were the years.

The sport of life

Was played out on a synthetic field

In the court of public opinion in some shy high school.

If only in the brush I could haved shied away.

But those were the years.

He stands tall in memory

I see him then battling mentalities Jesus never bothered to mention.

He is chasing me

As I wished we could escape together.

But those were the years.

My chest heaves

The brain digests something the stomach looked over.

Breathing in the life that I had promised myself

Acknowledging suicide demans more time still.

Fish would call this water if it was not frozen.

I would grasp it if it were not meant to slip.

And now what is meant?

And those were the years.

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