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I Am Fat
Note-another deeply personal piece. hate my body. always have. Think I will forever.
Mama and daddy
I blame it all on you
Every last misterable ugly pound
Your sin
Your unholy cross to bear
To burn in Hell for
Wherever you are now
Dead or alive
Kept me so sheltered
Indoors all the time
I never had room to breathe
I never had any friends or love
So I ate my love
Stuffed into my hungry mouth
All the feelings of straving heart
I wanted to dance
But you never gave me the chance
I was a prisoner
In a house never my home
So afraid
You would lose me
You put upon me
Invisiable chains of doubt and guilt
And the fear
No one could ever love me
Not as much as several generous helpings of dinner could
And so you watched as slowly I killed myself
Digging my lonely grave
With a knife and fork
Child abuse to the extreme!
I guess the hitting and the verbal taunting were 't enough
You had to go that extra step
Make sure your only child
Grew an ass mile
Forever erase
An innocent smile
Thanks alot mom and dad
For all the good grades
Instead of the love I craved
I got fed
The reason today
Because of you
Your adult daughter
Wishes she were dead!
You never loved me
How could you?
When all you did was overfeed and underlove
Scars were left
Ones that will never heal
No matter how many head-docs I talk to
No matter how may weight loss plans I go on
Nothin is gonna work
No one is gonna ever magically heal me
And that mama and daddy
That is the core reason
Of my eternal unhappiness
Now if you'll excuse me
I hear the dinner bell ringing
Forever ringing
Calling this lonely fat girl's name
2013 Ramona Thompson
