All My Husband Does Is Make Me Cry

Always every damn day and night without fail

Lets loose on me for no good reason

Lets me know his crap life is for sure all

 

My fault

Yearn many a hour for a divorce and the freedom he refuses to grant me

 

Hell he makes of my life and I can't even begin to

Understand why or how

Such a sweet man overnight became this devil before me

Barely two years wed and already the romance seems long dead

Nothing but endless sorrow and tears in sight

Drowning all my hopes for a good and happy life

 

Damned if I do and damned if I don't

One way or another something simply has to give here before I truely do lose my mind

Empty, almost empty now of all my past love for him

So lost and feeling so very alone

 

I feel as if all hope is so rapidly fading away

Struggling just to take another breath from one day to the next

 

Maybe it really is all my fault and I need to change

Anything to keep him from walking out that door forever

Kinda screwed up right now in heart, mind and soul

Eager so eager to make a change but not quite thinking clear

 

Mixed up and not sure in which direction I want my life to go

Eternal I seem to question always my own self worth

 

Can't go on like this forever I know

Reckless with my emotional health riding this up and down love roller coaster

You got any advice?

 

I'd love to hear from you if do

 

Thanks

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S74rw4rd's picture

Not all men are like that.

Not all men are like that.


Starward

Maria's picture

Just from reading this, I can

Just from reading this, I can feel your suffering right now. Never believe you are at fault based solely on the actions of someone else. If you try to have a conversation in which you two discuss your feelings and end up leaving every time apologizing or feeling guilty of wanting to be honest and open, they are emotionally manipulating you.

 

The end is very hard to accept, but the two of you may need to be free.

 

My PM is open if you ever need to talk to someone.

 

Take care,

M